The twins party was fun! Oh, yes. Amazing. Partied all night fucking long! I'm finally doing my work for once in my life. Well, I got the assignment like last week and it's kind of due Tuesday. Ohwell, I got this! I really need to keep on top of my exercise. Gosh, why isn't it working. Not fair, Not fair. How you bought the same shirt and pants as me and you looked better. Just cause your skinny. More Motivation for me to lose 50 pounds and look anorexic. You really need to get at me with something good!

"James, how'd you end up calling us?"
"Well, I was on the phone with April and I said I'd call Ivy back so I added her to the conversation. Then I called Christine and added her. Then I called you because you can't have those three and leave the fourth one out."

Simple. Things can be as simple as we make them out to be. Today, was a good day. Had fun being crazy and trying on accessories! LOL, I love my friends. So, you're on my mind again! Get out of there. Haven't talked to you all day. The twins party tomorrow? Yes. Ivy's house two hours early? Yes. Haha. I'm craving for an apple.

SCRATCH THAT, SCRATCH EVERYTHING! IT'S TWELEVE FUCKING OH EIGHT AND BOYS ARE DUMB.

At a certain moment, something can be so amazing that it consumes you, but as time goes on, you realize how insignificant and stupid it was. This is so true "everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end" Basically meaning we have to stick things out in order to make them better.


rosemary says:
*i love aj rafael- soldier
*HOLY SHOOT
*IM STRON STRONG AS A SOLDIER GINA
*ILL GET THROUGH ANYTHING

aheehee.

The way you present yourself is the most important. People can often assume you're gorgeous just by the level of your confidence. Why is confidence such a big issue for me? At home, yeah im the big woman on campus, but out there, not even! I get intimidated by really ugly girls. They're ugly yet they're more confident then I'll ever be. Hella weird. Perserverance is also something I don't have. I say I'll do my homework, study, read, exercise, but I never do it. What's that called? Oh yeah laziness. I just waste my time blogging! Wow, so productive. Agh, you really need to stop creeping into my thoughts. Anyhoes, I wish I still had braces. Shoot.

Today, is the day! Gfriend a.k.a Christine Baguindo's Birthday! Happy Sweet SWISSTEEN. LOVE YOU! So, watched Dance Flick today! It was okay, but had its boring moments. I'm honestly tired of 'relationship' stuff. Fuck, this! Love is for suckers.

Once again I caught myself thinking about you. I never though I'd actually like you that way. We barely talked. But, after a few encounters with you, my opinion changed. There's something about you. However, I really wish I didn't see you like that. Funny.

You's what's up. I honestly can't get you off my mind lately. When did this start? What's going on! It's not like I asked for this. Just stop already. It's not like you actually think of me other than a friend right? There's really no point. Shoot.

What do you do at 2:32 a.m. when you're bored? Blog, obviously. I'm too bored. At the moment, I'm watching family channel. What's on you ask? Life with Derek. An old one no doubt. Yes, it is. What the heck! Derek used to be so hot when he was younger, but as he aged he got uglier. Too bad. Right now, my hair is not co-operating. Damit. Probably because it's tired too. I miss you guys. "noone on the corner got swagger like us" I honestly can't wait for school, just to see you guys. And for the school work? Never that. I'm still stressing! Oh crap, there's a unit test on TMOV. Kill me. What am I doing today? Who knows. I've been waiting for some losers a.k.a. Jesica et Wilex to message. Knowing Jessica she fell asleep and Wilex is .. God knows where. I'm still mad at you by the way. Huh, it's funny, we can be put into convoluted situations, but the more we focus on it, the bigger and more confusing the situation actually gets.
"If I'm a douche you're a condom, Yo Trojan!" "ugh, douchery" "Douchery? Is that a brand?"

Amazing, utterly amazing! Just watched Slumdog Millionaire. It's the best movie ever. One of the few movies I actually enjoyed. Anywhores, today was a good day. Finally hung out with one of the long-lost bestfriends a.k.a. Kirby a.k.a. Rosemary. She's a funny girl! A hee hee.

Why the heck are you being so retarded? Ohyeah, there's other days then saturday this weekend to hang out with us right? As you've said before. But, guess what. I heard you're hanging out with 'them' again! SHOOT, just get out. Get the f*ck out. Why do you say you're down when you're obviously not.

Dear ex-"boyfriend",
Hello, this is pretty random. I just wanted to say, I maybe kind of miss you. So, it's been a few months since we last talked. And, now that I think about what you said about how we shouldn't be friends anymore, I disagree. We could work things out you know. It's not like we're looking for anything more than friendship with eachother. Right? It's really no big deal. Now, if only I could get some balls and tell you all this.

Dearest Cousin a.k.a. Cassandra Nicole Tan,
So niner, today's sunday! Guess whose birthday it is? Obviously not yours. Kidding! So you're finally freaking 15. Congrats girl! One more year until you can get your liscense. What can I say? You're my cousin, and one of my bestfriends. I can tell you anything and everything. You make me laugh with almost everything you do especially when you call me 'ginakins'! Haha. Unfortunately, we're going to be the same age for a couple of months. But, that's okay, I'm willing to share my age with the besterest cousin ever! Happy birthday, I hope you have an amazing one. Love you!

Love,
Gina a.k.a. The Coolest Person Ever!

Pst, good day!
"Have you ever done anything bad?"
"I steal.... music... off limewire"

You don't get to pick and choose your family, but you get to choose your friends. Funny, how sometimes the friends you choose turn out to be bad picks. Honestly, dude, why do you even bother. I've known you for about two years you call yourself my friend, but choose your 'older' friends over us. We went to your freakin musical and you go out with the cast. Understandable. But, come on, you say we'll hang out tomorrow, but once again, the 'cast' is always first. I get they're graduating and going away to university, you'll miss them. But, in the process, you could end up losing two of your bestfriends. You know, just saying.

Falcons, my idols, are champions! We knew they would win. Congrats guys. I was watching ugly betty, Adele came on and it reminded me of Christine! It's almost her birthday. I know what I'm getting her or do I? She's the best and almost sixteen, what a grandma. HAHA. So, math unit test tomorrow? I'm pretty sure it's not going to be that bad, trig? PFT! At the moment, times are getting better. Less drama equals a better day, but a really boring one. That's why I always need to be caught up on the gossip you know! I lied. Ha! I can't believe you already have TWO OTHER mans. What about your boy? I can't believe these guys actually go for you. Are they messed up in the head?!?

Good day! I feel like I overcame impossible obstacles. You know, one of those days. Honestly, why is it so hard to express feelings in blogs now a days? I can't believe I'm saying this, but I think I finally ran out of things to say.

Allie: So what?
Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day.


Pst, HI CHRISTINE.

History essay is completed. Finally, something I didn't wait to do.

Trying to take in what the hell I'm doing. Where the heck is my freaking head at?

Tonight, can we just make, make, make, love.

God sister is amazingly retarded. Love how we went from #1's to God sisters. I feel like I'm searching for something that can never be found. Maybe that's where I'm going wrong because you have to let it find you right? I should so be working on my essay. But, I have no time! WTF. I can't tomorrow because I'm watching one of my bestfriends in a musical. On sunday, I have nothing planned. On Monday, nothing. Tuesday, job training. That's right. Did I mention I got the job! So, I guess the only time I have is Sunday and Monday night. What a joy 2 days of essay writing rough and good copy. Dumb. Dumb. Dumb. This is what I guess for not starting it sooner. God, I feel like an idiot. Why the hell did I do that? NEVER AGAIN.

TAKE IT IN: school's almost done, and work is barely done. History essay? That's going to be a major bitch. It all comes down to the exams. That I have to prepare for. Definitely. Just livin' the life. You know! Things are good. Taking out the 'liking someone' part works well. Not too much stress and things just seem to fall into place perfectly. Y'dig? Blanks.

define insanity: Doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result.

Ironic, huh!?!

Somtimes things can be simple. Things can literally be as easy as 1,2,3, but being a girl going through puberty, I still tend to blow things out of proportion. The name of the game is paranoia. Who's always the winner? Who else, me. I always tend to make things bigger then they actually are. And, I actually believe the shit that I say. That becomes tiring and I tend to annoy not only other people, but myself. Forget that. It's all about going with the flow. Whatever happens, happens. WONDERLAND SEASON PASS? YES.

It's funny. When I think I'm 'making movements'sometimes, I actually end up moving backwards instead of forwards. Instead of learning from my mistakes I end up making the same ones over and over again which is idiotic. Maybe, the reason for that is I think if I can handle the same situation again I'll do things differenty. But, it turns out that things always turn out the same. So, basically, there's really no point in asking 'for a rewind' when you know you'll do things the exact same. Anyway, life is.. life. Well, the only thing, on my mind is school. Is it possible to raise your average by 12 percent to get an 80? Shit.

Yesterday was my supposed 'birthday' according to Ivy. At first, the whole idea was pretty funny, but as time went on I realized that she and the others were just being good friends. So, basically, I had a pretty awesome time yesterday, even if it didn't seem like it. Thanks for bringing me to that playground! I really had fun playing on those spinny things. Thanks for buying me food it was good even if I eat it when it's still hot. And, thanks Christine for staying just to 'celebrate' even though you had to go home! Thanks to the rest of you too! Love you guys. Anyway, pssst, did you hear? PACMAN, won! DAMN, two rounds only! A-FUCKING-MAZING.

I'm really pissed at the moment. I just lost this friendship bracelet I've had since grade four, right now! I just had it then poof, it disappeared. It's not like I actually wear the bracelet, but it just phases me how I can't find it. I could be doing work, just to get it out of the way, but I won't. I could be reading a fascinating novel or the dictionary, but I won't. I could be painting a million dollar work of art, but as you know, I won't. I find it funny that most of the time I spend is on a whole lot of nothing. Eating, comptuer and TV. That's basically my life. Can you say boring? I just really want to curl up in a corner and... play some NBA 09 on my PSP. But, you know what? It's not charged. my life is so boring I probably passed some of the boringness onto my PSP, and it crashed. Maybe I'll try and twist this post up a bit and record everything I'm doing:
1 - writing this post! obviously
2 - listening to music: some boys II men song
3 - eating: rice, of course!
4 - msn: talking to zirus.
Well, aren't those things fun! Wait, let's go back to number four. Talking to Zirus huh. Maybe I'll copy and paste the last thing he said to me here. Talk about exposure.
Zirus says (12:49 AM):
*u crazy
So, let's get down to business, the only real reason for this post, to talk shit. I lied. There's honestly no gossip I know about. Did I mention, life's boring! I think I did. Anyway, this post was pretty random, but I had nothing better to do haha!

A lot of times, people say things and it goes in one ear and out the other. The statements they make don't even seem real because basically, they're just words. It's not as if they actually believe or mean what they say. So, why should I? Now a days, everything is extremely stressful. From school to the social life. School consists of work. Work, I know how to do, but I'm just to lazy to put pen to paper and write stuff down. I'm the biggest procrastinator. I'm guessing my history essay will not be handed in on time. The social life is pretty satisfying to say the least. Except, most of my friends have boyfriends. It's not like I want a boyfriend to fit in. It's just, sometimes, I have awkward 'third-wheel' moments. "Y'know how it is". But, aside from all of that the crew, as I like to call it is amazing. They're the best bunch of people that I know. And, those aren't just words.